Somber

I know most people choose to use their blog to share jokes, funny things about their life, and everyday things but I like to blog because it gives me a chance to vent. I'm having a blah week. My dad (who suffers from Huntington's disease) is getting worse. He's fallen 3 times in the last 3 weeks and is slowing disappearing. What I mean by the disappearing is that he's trapped in that sick body and my dad can't be himself. He can't talk, he can't interact, he can't maintain a thought for more than 10 seconds - it's horrible. It's so depressing to watch. Most the time I can handle it, you know, it's just become part of life. This is just one of those weeks when it hits me. People are slowly not coming to visit anymore, they don't know what to say, they can't stand to see him like this, and it's just uncomfortable for them. I can't blame anyone, if he wasn't my dad it'd be hard to face too. I can hardly remember him before this disease took over. I know he was a huge man (in strength, stature, and heart). It's hard to believe that just 6 years ago he was still working a full-time job, driving, cooking...walking without a walker. Ah, heaven will be such a celebration for me. To see my dad walk, jump, dance in complete freedom. To see his eyes completely clear and hear him really talk to me. Not to mention I'll get to see my Savior, who made it all possible.